A lot of people do not know that I truly love to watch documentaries. I prefer them to film majority of the time. A documentary that I have watch at least 5 times is 20 Feet from Stardom, which is about background singers. This movie is about how people that are singing background for some of the biggest artist, and some who once wanted to be a lead, but they never made the jump to stardom. They have tried, but they just never became successful.
This hits home to me for many reasons, one of them being a person that has always wanted to tell stories, but never quite able to follow that dream. If you are a dreamer this will hit you hard, but you must continue chasing that dream. It will happen, but it may not be they way you want it to be.
I would give this a documentary an 8 out of 10. That is high for me, and I think anybody that watch this documentary you would say the same.
This movie came out last year, and I think it is one of the best to come out of the year 2020. The Forty-Year-Old- Version, tells a story that is so relatable that anybody would understand it. The film stars and is directed by Radha Blank, and she is brilliant in it. This is also her debut which makes it even more special to me. This is not your average film about trying to make it. This is one that shows how hard it is to make it and keep it.
I am not going to give the story away, but it hits home for me for the fact that I understand what she is going through with her career. If you are a struggling artist, you will understand. There is a lot of stuff that I am going through with mine that I just cannot seem to get together. I would recommend that everybody go to Netflix and watch this film. This is not a movie for kids. I would give this an 8 out 10. You will thank me later.
Yesterday I was going to try to be happy, but then today came, and that went out the window. I honestly do not know why I am feeling like this. If I am being honest I know what exactly is going on, and I am just too afraid to answer it. I knew I had to be somewhere today, and I spent most of my morning planning for it. Knowing that my whole mood changed. One thing I do know is, that I need to work on me, if you can understand that.
The one thing I have learn since this whole quarantine situation ( even though I have not done it), is that you have to take care of yourself. Now that I am left along with my thoughts more than normally, a lot of things have come to light and have made me question every decision that I, or someone I know have made. The one thing that became clear to me is that I am not living life. I am something that is just here, That is terrifying to think about, yet I am still not doing anything to make it better. The more I am alone with these thoughts make me questions everything. I know what I need to do, but the question is will I do it.
This is just a peak into what I have been dealing with the last few months. Everyone be safe and take care of yourselves.
What is it like to have fun? I honestly do not know if I must say so. The last time that I actually had fun would have to be almost three years ago. This is year has been really hard in more ways than one, and everyday it seems to get harder. There seems as if the end is no where in site. I just want to have a day where I am just chilling with my family like we used to, but I learned that it will never happen like that again.
When I go home it just does not feel the same. The vibe is just completely different. Nothing feels the same. It starts with people, then the environment. There is always places that I used to go to that I cannot go to anymore, for either it is not there, or the person is dead. I just wish everything can go back to normal. The one thing I learn about life is nothing will ever be normal as we get older that is apart of life. That is the sacrifice we all have to learn to make.