Poem: Trees in the Fall

What does my pain mean to you?

Right now, I can say it means nothing at all.

If I say no you push and push until you get your way.

No matter how many times I say that I cannot do you what you ask.

My cries go unanswered like the trees going into the fall.

My branches are all but gone, yet you still ask for more.

I usually do what you say.

Now I am breaking like the last little tree down the way.

I ask for nothing and yet I am still wrong.

When I tell you no understand that is what I mean.

That my saying no is not meant to hurt you.

Those are just my leaves leaving my soul.

It is hurting me to let them fall.

I have no request and I have no answers.

As the leaves fall know that those are my tears.

Each leaf is tear I wish I did not have to shed.

Poem: Like Me

Lately I have been searching for ways to understand me.

I have tried to look deep inside and there is nothing.

To see, to feel and to love.

I have never love and I do not know how to love.

The only thing I know is I do not know the person I want to be.

The person that can stand tall and fight any mountain that keeps me from being me.

I do not like the person I see.

I do not like the person I am trying to be.

I just know I like the pain that I bring onto me.

The pain that runs deep into my soul that spills out all over me.

The truth is something that I cannot see.

 I no longer cry for the hurt I bring.

I just smile and pretend that I like the pain.

The truth remains is that I do not like me.

Could it be I just do not know me

Poem: Waiting

My love the time has come.

The time we all knew would be soon.

The time that has come for most, and now it is here for you.

I have met my faith and did what had to be done.

It is almost your time now, and finally you can see the sun.

The lights that have become harder to see will finally be clear.

The vison that has haunted most is now one that will no longer bring fear.

This is not a test, this is not a rest, this is just the next step.

I know you are scared, and wondering is this it?

The answer is yes, but do not fear.

You will find me waiting my dear.

I have looked out and over for many years counting down the days.

I know this is hurting them most, but this time I need you more.

We hoped that we would have more time to share with the ones you loved.

You had more than me and that is all I can think of.

This journey with you have been one that made dreams think that this was not real.

The journey is ending, and the start of the unknown is waiting.

Do not cry just know that I am waiting on the other side.

Poem: Where is the Love?

Where has the love went?

It used to stare me in the face, now it is nowhere to be found.

The things that built bridges is the same thing that is breaking them down.

Where oh where has it gone?

The answer is in my face, but I just cannot see.

A love that is meant to be will stand any river that runs through it.

I know where I must go and who I must see.

The things that started this love is the thing that will bring it back to me.

The solution to the problem is correct.

This love will never come back unless you look.

Choices were made and decisions are now on display.

There is no where to turn, but to the person in the mirror.

Once that person learns to love what is looking back.

Then we will no longer have to wonder where the love went.

Poem: Okay

You come to me and ask what is wrong?

All I can say is I’m fine.

I smile and walk on by.

You try and speak to me, and my words stop before I can answer.

The joy that lived within me has all but vanish.

I do not know me.

I do not know the person I have become.

I just know the hurt that lives within my pain.

The pain that I refuse to say from where it came.

Deep down I want you know that this is not me.

This is the me that you have made.

The person that was created to help you heal.

Then you got well, and I feel ill.

I try to go back to one that was here before.

I think currently that is no more.

My ship has sailed, and my love has failed.

This is the new me.

The one that has no words but smile just make sure you are okay.