Poem: Trees in the Fall

What does my pain mean to you?

Right now, I can say it means nothing at all.

If I say no you push and push until you get your way.

No matter how many times I say that I cannot do you what you ask.

My cries go unanswered like the trees going into the fall.

My branches are all but gone, yet you still ask for more.

I usually do what you say.

Now I am breaking like the last little tree down the way.

I ask for nothing and yet I am still wrong.

When I tell you no understand that is what I mean.

That my saying no is not meant to hurt you.

Those are just my leaves leaving my soul.

It is hurting me to let them fall.

I have no request and I have no answers.

As the leaves fall know that those are my tears.

Each leaf is tear I wish I did not have to shed.

Poem: Flowers

Flowers hang on my window looking like you.

They once were bright and full of light.

Now they are slowly drifting away.

I tried to save them, but the pain they were delt was more than I was willing to bare.

This hurts you just as much as it hurts me.

I tried to push through, but what was the point of baring the fruit.

I looked for answers, but each day another part of the flower would slip away.

Then one day it was nothing left for me to do.

I held on hoping that one day they might come back to me.

I did all I could, but still it was not enough.

Then I realize that I was trying to hold onto you.

The you I once knew.

The you I love and loved me.

I had to let you go, but I cannot.

That is why I still look at window and I see the flowers you gave. I might just have to take them to the grave.

Poem: Test

Fear is winning the battle that love lost.

The hope of being true has come at price of the head.

One that is too heavy to carry.

You think you have all the answers, but you always fail.

The cold nights have made for an even colder soul.

Lights do not show you anything that the darkness does not want to show.

You are where you begin time and time again.

This time the journey is one that sees no end.

The place you want is costing the battle that belongs to you.

This is not right, but the test just will not end.

When will you get it?

The thing that you desire but has not hope to see.

The question cannot be answered because you wrote the test.

Sometimes you have to wait

I could never picture myself saying these worlds, but after these last couple of days I have learn that everything does happens for a reason, and it something that I need to get use to. The one thing that I have learned is that there is a lot of love and hope out in the world, and you have to be willing to go get it. It will not be east, but it sure as hell will be worth it. It might not happen today or tomorrow, but it will happen as long as you believe that it will.

Something that I am going to do is start putting something that made me look at things from a different point of view. I’m not going to lie it took me about three hours to write this. I do not know why. I just feel like I am obligate to do, but I just don’t know what to say. I wanted it to be about hope and waiting for something is sometimes worth it, but I got distracted and just do not know what to say. Hopefully I will tomorrow.

Here is one of my favorite songs I have been listing to the last couple of days.