Have you even seen the sun grow?
Have you even seen the moon go back into it shadow?
Have you ever wondered why I do not sleep?
The thought of waking up and not seeing you gave me chills worse than any nightmares.
It is hard to know what it would feel like to not have love.
Would I be, okay?
Would I just sink like quicksand?
You laugh and I try not to cry.
The truth is you do not care.
You do not love like me so how would you know.
Do you try to, no but I do?
I shed tears like the largest rainfall.
I bleed just to call your name.
Have you cared for the things I do?
Have you ever just thought of me?
I can say that I never did.
Flowers hang on my window looking like you.
They once were bright and full of light.
Now they are slowly drifting away.
I tried to save them, but the pain they were delt was more than I was willing to bare.
This hurts you just as much as it hurts me.
I tried to push through, but what was the point of baring the fruit.
I looked for answers, but each day another part of the flower would slip away.
Then one day it was nothing left for me to do.
I held on hoping that one day they might come back to me.
I did all I could, but still it was not enough.
Then I realize that I was trying to hold onto you.
The you I once knew.
The you I love and loved me.
I had to let you go, but I cannot.
That is why I still look at window and I see the flowers you gave. I might just have to take them to the grave.
Fear is winning the battle that love lost.
The hope of being true has come at price of the head.
One that is too heavy to carry.
You think you have all the answers, but you always fail.
The cold nights have made for an even colder soul.
Lights do not show you anything that the darkness does not want to show.
You are where you begin time and time again.
This time the journey is one that sees no end.
The place you want is costing the battle that belongs to you.
This is not right, but the test just will not end.
When will you get it?
The thing that you desire but has not hope to see.
The question cannot be answered because you wrote the test.
Do you remember the thunder in the clouds?
The way we held each other as if tomorrow would never end.
We sat under the trees and wish for better days.
Not knowing that they have already come and gone.
The dreams are no longer coming true.
Do you remember how we thought this would last?
The moment we said I do was the last day that we cared.
Rain pouring down our face, yet we see the sun as bright as day.
The shadow creep around the corner, and yet you no longer wonder is that me.
Do you remember when the first time you smile?
Was it because of me or did the sun hit your eyes?
I have lost my words.
Nothing is real.
I do not remember who you are.
I just need to know.
Do you remember me?
Fear is losing, but you are not winning.
Hope is drowning, yet you are covered.
To move you must take risk.
They become harder than the mountain.
The fall is not graceful, it is a tumbled as the weeds pass by.
You see the future and it is not bright.
The light that shines on it can only go so far.
This is the destiny that you want.
This is not the one that is paid for.
Will you get it right, or let it simmer like the midnight flame.
Pick you battle and go for the fight.
This is it your destiny awaits.