Trying once again

It is the beginning of April, and I honestly cannot believe it. This year is flying by compared to last year. There is so much that has happened, that I almost forget that it did happen. Last year everything was moving slow, but that could be for the fact that we were stuck in one place, and not able to do anything. Now, everything is happening, and if I am honest, I do not know how to feel about this.

I am not person that believes in the good, I only see the bad as I have said before. You can tell by the poem I try to write. They are all written from a sad place. Writing them has shown me that I do not know how to be happy. I just know pain and sorrow. I have not always had pain in my life, but that seems to be the only thing that sticks with me.

To come from where I am from, you will see a lot of things that will stick with you, but you are the one that can determine how you deal with it. Life is hard, that is the beauty about it. I have been around long enough to know that hard work pays off. You just have to do the work.

I am making some big changes this month that I fear, but after thinking about them for a while I know they are the best decision for me. That is apart of life you must be willing to take chances, the worst thing you can is fall. You then must get back up and try again. That is the best part about life. It is not easy, but the journey to get what you want will hurt. It is time for me to feel some pain. I hope I do not, but it will be okay. I said this before, and have done it halfway, but now I have to step out on faith.