Next

As this month draws to a close, I cannot help  but wonder what’s next? That is a strange question to ask, but with everything that has happen I can’t help but ask. I do not think that is something that we can answer, nor is it something that we should answer. What is next is not meant for us. We will find out eventually, but with all the uncertainty out in the world, it could be hard for people to picture life past today.

Poem: I don’t know

Back to life as if nothing has change

Yet as I look around only dust and dirt remain

From the people that used to hang around the corner store

To the old man begging for change down the way.

You rush to check on your love ones

Then you remember that they are not there

The children are not running around outside

And the oil is no longer dripping from your uncle’s car

The shelter you hid in is suddenly gone

But there is a light that is shining bright over there

You see a familiar face that has been gone for years

When you touch her face it makes you feel real?

As soon as you turn your head, she is gone with the dust

Like the man down the street or the neighbor in the front yard

As you look around trying to see if this is real

You wake up and weep for things that has disappeared.

 

 

I just felt as if I needed to write something so I wrote this. I am still figuring it out.

The Unknown

Worried, tired, stress, and the unknown. Those words are similar in some from or way, but that is how I have been feeling lately. I don’t quite understand why that is, but I feel like something is missing or that I am going to fail. There is a bunch of stuff that is going on in the world, but I don’t understand how I should feel.

My life has and is changing at the moment, and I am not sure that I can handle it. Most of it is my doing, but a lot of it i don’t have control of at the moment, and I don’t understand. I am worried about everything, but what I should be worried about. That is just life I guess. I can never see the positive in almost anything, I can only see the negative and how it is going to affect me.

I don’t really know what to say really. The only thing that I can say is that the unknown is starting to come to the light and I don’t how to adjust to it. That is something that we all go through. If we are honest with ourselves life is full of the unknown, and that is what makes it great I think. That is also what makes it scary to deal with. I should have a lot of free time on my had, but If you know me I do not. There is still a lot of things that what to do, but I don’t really know how.

This is not going to be a long thing, but I think this is the time to explore, and get to doing things that you have wanted to do for a while. There is no excuse and the unknown is about to be part of the known.

Hot Girls Wanted

This post is for mature audiences. Hot Girls Wanted (2015) is a documentary film by Jill Bauer and Ronna Gradus; about the lives of girls who are in amateur porn. The film follows the lives of young women between the ages of 18-25. The film shows how these sweet and innocent your girls get involved in the porn industry without really knowing.

This was an interesting film for me. It showed me how a simple ad posted on craigslist can change so many young girls’ lives. The message usually says “free trip to Miami,” and so many girls fall for it every time. The film follows a couple of amateur porn stars, one of them goes by the porn name of “Stella May” (her real name is Tressa Silguero.) She was one of the sweet innocent high school cheerleader, who saw an ad on craigslist and thought this was her chance to leave her small town. So one day that is what she did, without telling her parents anything. Her story is highlighted the most throughout the film.

Overall I would say that this documentary was more informational than anything else. These are sad stories, for the fact the girls would throw away their lives for a little bit of fame and money. To make things worse they have at least three months to either make it in the industry, and if they don’t they will mostly have to go back to their regular lives.  The message I think that this film was trying to make was how easy it is for young girls to get trick into something

Flashback Friday: Citizenfour

In 2013 the world learn about NSA spying scandal. The documentary Citizenfour (2014) details what happen during that time. Edward Snowden is the man that is responsible for releasing the documents to the world with the help of Laura Poitras, a documentary film maker, Glen Greenwald an investigated journalist, and Ewen MacAskill a reporter for The Guardian.The documentary is shot in real time so as everything is coming out you get to see first why he did it, and how it happened. You get to see when they first met Snowden,and what he is like after the information comes out.

Before watching this film i did not know much about the NSA scandal, but after watching this film it open my eyes to things that i could not believe. You get to see why Snowden did this, and how he did this. There are a few scenes in which they have to talk in code so that he can stay hidden. Most of the time, Snowden is worried about his girlfriend and how his actions have affected her.
If you think you already know what happened think again. This is one move that will leave you on the edge of your seat.

This video is courtesy of Radius.

This movie made me ask one question what this all worth it for him?