Poem: Waiting

Is this the place you see.

The one that makes you feel at ease.

Then it is time to move.

You are too comfortable here.

Your body is no longer with your mind.

The two shall not meet.

Pain is no longer freeing.

The storm brings shelter.

That the heart is not willing to make.

You see the door.

Go death is waiting.

Poem: Missed Call

I never think about it until it happened one day.

It was always there, but it never came my way.

I used to call for it, but it seemed we always missed each other.

I wanted this to end and see what else could have been.

Then one day it answered someone else call.

The one that I love.

The one that held my hand.

The one that shed my tears.

The reply was slow.

When he arrived, they were both gone with a blink of an eye.

Death and I never were close.

Now he is my best friend.

One day I know we will meet again.

Short Story Part 3: The Night I Almost Forgot

This is part 3 of my short story. This is not the edited version with the finish product. This is just the original idea.

    Why are you keeping asking me that question? That is something that should go without saying. They were my parents I felt the same way about them as you do about your parents as anyone of us does. Almost two years ago, we lost out parents. That was one the saddest time in our lives especially mines; I was the baby. Every day I think about them. They were the most important two people in world to us. They were always there when we needed them, and I was the baby, so they treated me differently than they did my siblings.

So, when I saw what happen to them, it shook me up. Those bodies that’s an image I would never get out of my head. Not in a bad way but in a good way. I know you might not understand, but they kept trying to control my life, telling me what and who I can and cannot be around. I could not live my life like that anymore. I refused to live my life like that. Does it sadden me that they are gone? Well yes. Then I realize I am free they cannot control me anymore. So, do you want to know what happen that night? Sammie did not kill them I did. Oh, but she would have if I told her. I wanted to be the one that did it. I had to, after watching how they treated Mike and April liked there were gods, but when it came to me, I was never good enough. To you all, they seem like the perfect people. They would go to all these benefits donate money to all these causes, but I was their child, and they couldn’t give a rat’s ass about me until they thought I was hurting their image.

    So, on that night in question, I was getting high with Sammie like we normally did, but tonight was different it was my birthday, and my parents did not care they never wish me a happy birthday. When Sammie came up this brilliant idea, that she should kill my parents. At first, it sounded like a joke, but I though hey; now that sounds like a good idea why don’t I do that. So, I snuck into their room that night and waited for the perfect opportunity. Should I tell you what I did?

            After Austin’s descripted monologue about the that night, the District Attorney asked him why he did this, all Austin said was that she told me to. Austin then points over to where his siblings are sitting in the courtroom, and where Sammie is supposed to be sitting but no one is there.

“Who are you pointing to”

“At Sammie; she is sitting right there.” As he starts smiling with an unhappy gleeful smile.

“But Austin, there is no one sitting right there.”

“What do you mean there is no one there she is sitting right there.”

“Austin, Sammie is not here.”

“She is right there look.”

“Austin, Sammie’s dead don’t you remember? She died about a year ago.”

Austin then looks again, and he notice that no one is there. He is stunned, his body is shaking, and he looks over at his sister Kelly and notice that Mike is holding her while the tears just slowly roll down her face. He starts thinking what I did, where am I, as he is looking around the courtroom. The judge yells out.

“Don’t move boy.” Austin minds starts running he calls out to Kelly, but Mike walks her out of the courtroom giving Austin the look of death over what he did. Austin then starts to yell out for Sammie, but she is not around.

“Where is Sammie she was here a few minutes ago where is she?”

“Austin, Sammie’s not here.”

“Yes, she is, we came here together where is she?”

“Austin, there is no way she can be here. She is dead don’t you remember?”

“What!”

“Sammie died of an overdose; don’t you remember it was a year ago.”

Austin is stunned and confused he cannot believe what he is hearing, then he starts to remember what happen, and the shock and tears roll down his face. Not over the fact that his parents are dead, but that he is the one that killed Sammie. Sammie was the only person that he ever cared for so how this could happen.

Then he remembers that night they both had been drinking, after Austin parents told him that Sammie was no longer allowed at their house. He went over to Sammie house to pick her up, and they went to their usually spot and got drunk. Austin blocked this memory out; he did not want to believe that his friend was gone.

Now he realizes that his parents were trying to help him, but he could not see it. For the first time he starts to cry for his parents, they did love him. It just wasn’t the way in which he wanted them to.  He then remembers back to sit at the kitchen table and his parents warn him that one day Sammie was going to change his life, he just did not expect this.

Podcast Review: Slow Burn

A podcast that has grown on me over time is Slow Burn, the first two season were good to me. The third season was one that was familiar, but it was nothing that stood out. I recently just got done with the fifth season. The first season was about the Watergate scandal, particular a woman named Martha Mitchell. I learned a lot about Watergate that I did not know.

The second season is about the Bill Clinton impeachment, and how it all came to be. This season was great it was deep dive that I never dealt with before. I must say that one reason why this might be good is that I remember some of this stuff. The third season is about Tupac and Biggie murder.

the fourth season must be the best one. This season is about David Duke, and if you do not know who he is look him up. That is all I will say about that. The last season is about how did we ended up in war for the last 20 years. It was great there so much that I thought I knew but did not.

Overall, I would give this podcast 7 out 10. There are some good episodes and some not so good. If you want to be informed listen and you will. This podcast is apart of slate magazine.