Hurting from deep and running from the real.
Trying to see if this something that could be.
Leaving with questions that never have answers.
That you never would want it to be.
Not really trying to understand the pain that is within.
This is all that has come into the light that guides you.
The pain is all to real that you never feel it until it is almost over.
Then you remember this is just another day of life.
A life that has never been kind, but you have enjoyed the fruits.
The fruits have always been bitter, but that is what makes them sweet.
I love you.
I love you.
The three hardest words to say.
Yet with you they fall off my tongue.
I have written these words before, but I never meant them with love.
This time with you all I do is say them with love.
I am thankful for these words.
They have given me the opportunity to be the person I have always wanted to be.
Now as I lay here looking at the rising sun all I can think about is that I love you.
These words will never grow tired.
They will only deepen the wound that my heart held for so long.
Once again, I must say that I love you for the rest of my days.
Another year around the globe and yet nothing has change, but everything.
The love that once surround you is no more.
The place that you used to call home is gone.
The people that made you are no longer hear.
Friends have come and gone, and yet you are still smiling.
Thought it hurts that some calls will never come.
Your future is shining bright.
The shell that you used to carry on your back is starting to break.
31 years to this life and now it starting to feel complete.
The new way is starting today.
The way things were are no longer how they will be.
The calls will still come, but there will be one less voice to hear.
The voice of the one that used hold your hand and wipe your tears.
The person you never knew who voice is the only one you want to hear.
Now it cannot be it can only be played in your memories.
Soon those will fade away.
Today is a start of a new day.
It is the start of the rest of your days.