I can see the stars, but they are not shinning.
Everything around me is going great, but I am not.
I am numb to the situation, expecting things to fail so I stop.
I do not let the happiness within come to life.
My joy can never be seen.
I work everyday and night just to make sure I feel alright.
There is not guarantee that this is real.
It could all be over with a blink.
Why am I so used to the hurt that joy also brings me pain?
Can I be healed?
That is why I do not give it my all.
I am terrified that the person looking in the mirror is doing okay.
I am terrified that the person is going to make it.
I am terrified to realize that person is me.
I guess I am just terrified.