Poem: Me

Today I am scared,

I do not know why, but something is terrifying to me.

My bones are hurting, and my soul is shaking.

I wake up and I cannot breathe.

I wonder is this the end.

This is all I got.

Sometimes I hope so, but then what will be the point.

My life is over, and I have done nothing, and now I cannot not move.

Why can I not move?

What is going on with me.

I do not understand why my heart is beating a 1000 time faster than before.

I try to stay positive, but I cannot find a positive thought in my head.

Have I always been down?

The answer is yes.

That is who I am.

That is who I will be.

Living

I have a big life decision that will be happening next week, and I am terrified. I know what I should do and what I need to do, but I am still scared. A lot of stuff has been going on with me the last couple of months almost years, but I it is hard for me to decide about anything. I change my mind constantly, but I do not know what to do. I wish I could believe in myself as much as I tell other people to believe in themselves, but I just cannot do that.

This is a part of life I guess, sometimes you must make the hard decision, and either grow or learn from it. Life goes on weather you are living it or not, so you got to start living it soon before it is gone. That Is the motto I am taking with me for the rest of my life. I just need to start living, it may be hard, but you got to do it.

Movie Review: 12 Angry Men(1957)

Another movie that I think everyone should watch is 12 Angry Men (1957). This happens to be in the top 5 of movies that I love. The style of this movie made me want to write a movie like this. The movie takes place in one afternoon, which draws you in from the get-go. I have been trying to write a movie that takes place in one day, I even tried one room, but I have not got it done just yet.

Though this movie came out in the 50s, but a lot of what they are talking about is happening today. The movie is about 12 men on a jury, and we back to the deliberating room and watch the talk about the case. I remember a few years back I watch a move called 6 angry women, it was short film, but it was just as intense as the movie. I would recommend you watch both.