This past two weeks I have been doing a lot of reflecting on the upcoming weeks, and what they mean for me. I want them to mean hope, but something deep down is telling me they will not. I tend to over think things and to over analyze everything. I try to stay positive, but for some reason I do not know how to. When anything happens, I immediately look at it from every angle. It could be good, but I will look for the bad inside it. That is my natural and I am learning to live with it.
I have always said that life is not meant to be easy, and if it were easy It would not be worth living. That is jut my opinion. I know there are things that come easy to people, and there are somethings that come easy to me. I just do not like anything that is easy. I need to be challenge. If I am being honest there were something that came easy to be, and I did not appreciate as I should have. If I did things differently my life would be completely different, but since I chose the road that was less traveled it has been an uphill battle.
I do not like the challenge, but I do welcome it. I can say that everything I have I had to work for it. I did have some help along the way, but where I am sitting now, I got myself here. The truth is I wish I have taken the easy road. I could be far along with my life, and maybe the struggle would not be as real as it is. I really do not know. I just that I want more for me, and if I want, I must work to get, and I have waited long enough. It is time to stop over analyzing things and just go. Your dreams starts today. You do not have time to wait, go for them now.