To live today means tomorrow may never come.
Life is short and sometimes not sweet.
We live and look for something more,
And we always keep looking.
Yesterday I looked, but I came up short.
Today I am looking and so far, I have found nothing.
Tomorrow I will try, but deep down I know it is not guaranteed.
I used to dream about months and weeks I may never see.
So, now I have to prepare to leave the ones I hope I can see.
My soul is not here for long, so I must stop soon.
It could be tonight, so I must move fast.
Until my clock stops, and I can no longer see,
I will continue to look in hopes for brighter new me.
This past two weeks I have been doing a lot of reflecting on the upcoming weeks, and what they mean for me. I want them to mean hope, but something deep down is telling me they will not. I tend to over think things and to over analyze everything. I try to stay positive, but for some reason I do not know how to. When anything happens, I immediately look at it from every angle. It could be good, but I will look for the bad inside it. That is my natural and I am learning to live with it.
I have always said that life is not meant to be easy, and if it were easy It would not be worth living. That is jut my opinion. I know there are things that come easy to people, and there are somethings that come easy to me. I just do not like anything that is easy. I need to be challenge. If I am being honest there were something that came easy to be, and I did not appreciate as I should have. If I did things differently my life would be completely different, but since I chose the road that was less traveled it has been an uphill battle.
I do not like the challenge, but I do welcome it. I can say that everything I have I had to work for it. I did have some help along the way, but where I am sitting now, I got myself here. The truth is I wish I have taken the easy road. I could be far along with my life, and maybe the struggle would not be as real as it is. I really do not know. I just that I want more for me, and if I want, I must work to get, and I have waited long enough. It is time to stop over analyzing things and just go. Your dreams starts today. You do not have time to wait, go for them now.
The day I hate the most,
The one that most people love.
The day people cannot wait for it to come around,
Scares me to my soul.
I fear it coming day by day.
I am grateful for the day, but I cannot love it for what it has cause.
That day has given hurt, lost, and love.
It happens at the beginning of the year, so I can never forget it.
To some it may seem a good day, or an earth day.
The day that holds so much good but is also filled with even more pain.
To think the beginning could also mean the end of another.
If not the end, the news that something might later that year.
When I was younger it used to be joyous,
That change almost 20 years ago.
For me I call it my death day, some will say happy birthday.
“If you’re going to live, you might as well do painful, brave, and beautiful things.” That is the quote that is on the cover of Jeff Zentner debut novel The Serpent King. The Serpent King is the story of three high school seniors doing their senior year, and the things they must deal with from family, college, and themselves. The novel is told from three main characters Dill, Lydia, and Travis point of view.
The story starts off and end with Dill, who is the main character out of the three, and it tell the story of his family. Dill comes from a line of snake handle preacher. His dad was one, and his dad’s dad was one. Dill father is currently in prison for a hideous crime. Out of all the three, Dill must have the most uphill climb out of all the characters. His struggles with his family, his story was the one that I related to most. Not all his stuff, but majority of the stuff with college. It was close to home for me. His characters make you feel as if you have known them forever.
I am not going to give much away about the book, but if you live or grew up in the south then this book is for you. The stories about hit home for they are awfully familiar. There is a part in the middle of the book that I was not prepared for, and it change the whole dynamic of the story. I know this story well. Spoiler ahead so read at your own risk.
As the story starts picking up one of the main characters is killed, and it is such a powerful and emotional scene that it completely changes the theme of the book in my eyes, about life. It shows how much life matters, and how death can bring things into perspective that we do not always understand. You also get to see how different people deal with grief when it hits close to home.
As a person who has not read many books in the last 10 years, this was one of the best ones, to dip my foot back into the water.
This is a little something of a short play that I am working on, there is a lot more to do, but this is just the beginning.