Have there ever been a time where a person lose site of what they want? The reason I am bringing this up again is that I think I am losing faith again. That is not something that is easy for me to say. I had goal what I want to complete by the end of the year, but I am nowhere near or halfway close to completing that. That is not that unusual for people to set goals and wait until the last minute to accomplish it.
This is something that a lot of people tend to do, and that is okay for me to not be done even though it is almost October. I did set a goal, but the most important thing is that I have not given up on my goal. When life throws you unexpected curve balls, that does not mean that you stop working for your goals. It just means it will take you a little bit more time than you expected.
One of the great challenges of life, is that each day you never know what you are going to get. It also could all be over within the blink of an eye. That is something that a lot of people tend to forget about life. It can all be over before you realize it. The most important thing is for you to believe that you can do it, no matter how long it takes in the end it will all be worth it. Rome was not built in a day, and neither what you are working on, just give it time.
Time is it relevant or is it objective
Is it a curse or a cure?
Is it love or hate?
Is it right or wrong?
Is it the soul, or the heartbeat?
Can it be brought or touch?
Is it now or later?
Is it ready for us to see?
Could it be you and me?
Or would it be waste if we let it go.
The rain fell quick.
Then the clouds parted with the wind.
It seems as if I was in a haze.
Then I looked up and saw the gates.
I wonder what to do.
I was ready to walk to you.
I though you may be there, but as it turns out.
I was at the wrong gate.
I am tired.
I mean tired.
I am so used to the hurt
That I forgot how it feels to bleed.
It seems as if I am numb to the pain like Novocain
Does that even make sense?
To me I do not know,
I am just here to please
And let you feel at ease.
This thing is hard,
And knowing that I got to keep living it
Makes me wonder when will it be enough?
If I am honest there is no answer to that question.
Sometimes I just want a moment to breath.
Then I think of why I am here,
Is because you stop.
I was having a conversation with someone recently, and they said something about giving thanks. That for some reason really hit me. I learned that I do not give, or think people as much as I should. I used to think that I did, but when I dug deep down I realize that I was letting my pride get in the way, which is a terrible thing. I do not know why I let this happens, but it is something that I need to change.
I must say pride is a deadly thing. When I say give thanks I mean to god. I am talking about whatever god that you believe in you must give thinks. If I am being honest, recently there have been countless times in which I was ashamed, or not sure what to believe anymore. I kept thinking why is this happening to me, is this what life is about. I can even say that this was a few weeks ago.
Then I realize that I need to stop doing what I am doing, and start giving thanks, and to listen. I have been trying to go for something for so long, but I realize that I lost track of what I was going for. I was not appreciating the things that I had. I have to make a change. I’m not saying that this will happen over night, but I got start somewhere. I am going to simply end this by saying thank you. Even if sometimes it seems as if I do not care. I do, but thank you for listening, and most importantly thank you for understanding.