This past week I found myself giving an little education about where I am from. I am originally from Orrville, Alabama. It is a small little town in Dallas county, about 15 minutes outside of Selma. Selma, Alabama which is know for it racism during the civil right movements, in my opinion has not change that much. Granted, I have never really asked anybody what it was like then, but from my observation nothing seems to have change that much. Everything is just now done in silence.
When I think about my hometown, I think about a couple of things. The first thing that I think about are the people. They are some of the reason that I am the person I am today. You can never find anybody without a backstory that is compelling, yet complicated. I learn some of my greatest life lesson from sitting around my grandmother porch listing to their stories that they would tell. I never in my life, even this day have I been around a group of individuals that did not have show compassion to everyone that they came across. No need for me to lie and say that everyone was an angel, but there are some individuals that were not good. For almost every 10 good people you met there were about 2 bad ones also. It is great place to grow up in, or visit.
Well since the last post, I must say that somethings have change. Something that I thought was gone has came back. This is the third time that this has come up. The only thing that I am wondering is will I actually go through with it this time. I have know about this for a couple days, and I have not acted on it yet. To be honest there have been a lot of things going this last week, and I truly have not been myself. I will not go into details about the situations, but I am truly hopeful that I will make the right decisions.
One thing that this has shown me, is that you got to be willing to take your chances you never know when they will come back, or if they will comeback. You are your own worst critic, and this time I refuse to let something pass me by. Tomorrow is not promise to us, reach out and take that step the worst you can do is fall.
So I know it has been awhile since I been on here, but I have been doing a lot of thinking, and trying to figure everything out. To be honest I am more confuse then ever. I know everything that I want, but every time that I think that I am close I get knock back down. I must say that I am starting to believe in myself more than I have been the last few months. It just seems as if everyday something else happen. Take yesterday for instance, my aunt told me that her dad died yesterday, who is also my granddad. I only met him once, about a two years ago. My mother never talks to him, but my aunt was very close to him. It was just weird thing to experience. I am still searching for what I need to do to be better than I was yesterday. I am just not sure if I can do it.
Something else has happen since the last time I posted. I told you that I was writing my first screenplay, well I still have not finish, I still have not written anything, but I did actually did an outline for it. I think that is a step in the right directions. The goal is still to be finish by the end of the year. Stay safe.