Poem: Out my way

So much pain, but not enough tears to cry.

I do not know where to begin, this is not expected.

Could this be true or is this déjà vu.

Time is not on your side it only let you down.

The more I try to wish it away, the more the pain pulls me back.

This world belongs to you, and all the dreams you dream.

The sand in the hourglass has almost run out.

We got to get this thing right, before it stops.

I try not to cry, but the tears always show up at my door.

The more I resisted the more they break the door down.

Who am I without you?

Is this the night that my nightmares come true?

Our love no longer stands tall, and the walls have started to fall.

I need to go, but my feet would move.

My love is leaving and this time it is not with you.

I do not know what to do but walk not run from you.

That way I can hold onto all that I can from you.

As you walk out my way.

Poem: Just

Where is the thing that makes you happy?

Do you even know what it means to be happy?

The wind blows yet it does not make a sound.

When I look up and see who is looking back it is not me.

It is not you, in fact I see us.

I see what we could be if we gave us water to grow.

We just never seem to be able to bloom.

The world of us is starting to crumble, and I do not think I can stop it.

I think it needs to fall.

The good has come and gone.

The bad has been the number one on the menu, at least for me.

This is not over, but it is done.

There is no going back now let us just run.

Movie Review: Double Jeopardy(1999)

I have watch this moved about 3 or 4 times, and I love it almost every time. Double Jeopardy, introduce me to double jeopardy the law. The story about a wife being framed for the murder of her husband, but he is not dead. The story is a little complicated, but it was good. At least I think it was good for what it is. This is the first movie that I saw with Ashley Judd, and I must say she was good in this movie. Tommy Lee Jones, I knew him, but I never really watched anything that he was in before.

  I would say this is a movie to watch if there is nothing else to watch and you want to be thrilled and need a little mystery in your life. I would give this movie a solid 3 out 5 stars. The reason I am saying this is there is a lot going on, but there is still room to make this movie better. This movie is currently on Netflix, so you watch at any time.

Unpretty waterfalls

The last couple of days I have been listen to a lot of TLC music, mostly two songs Waterfalls and Unpretty. I do not know why, but these songs have just been speaking to me more and more lately. The words to the songs seem like they are talking directly to me. I am at a point in my life where I am chasing something that I do not need to be doing, and I am not doing them the right way.

The part about the song Waterfalls, is that I have listen to the song for over 20 years, but this year I am listening to what they are saying. I have things that I want to do, but I am not listening to what people are telling me. I am going out and doing them on my own, and I am getting lost among the water. This is not the thing that I should do.

When it comes to unpretty, I do know why I just do not want to say. The answers are right in my face, but me being the person that I am, I just cannot say. I am too afraid to say what is on my mind, but I think I need to. This song speaks to so many people and over the years it has spoke to me. The lyrics about feeling that you are not good, and you look to things to make you feel better, but you do not you only feel worse. My whole life I have just never felt good about myself. I just always felt unworthy, and with everything that is coming up the next couple of weeks is making things worse.

I am working on me and that is all that I can do and even ask for, these are just the songs that are speaking to me and my soul. I am not perfect and do not want to be. I just want to be me and to be happy.